2007 saw me trying to implement a number of changes in my thinking, with what I feel has been considerable success. I’m happier now than I have ever been (and this despite my love being in Japan and all that that entails… ;-p )

One of those changes was to start to Let Go. I told myself over and over again to let go of my history, it just doesn’t matter. The wake behind the boat does not determine its future course. It’s done. It’s past. It’s history. Yes, ok, so I am a product of all that I have experienced until now, but that in no way pre-determines my future. What my life is tomorrow is up to me. I can change my life three billion percent tomorrow should I wish to – my past has no right to interfere with my free choice. I can start my life completely afresh tomorrow should I wish to do so. (As it happens, I have no wish to do so, as I am very, very happy and grateful for my life as it is today …but that wasn’t always the case).

Lifehack.org had a nice simple article about letting go.

I was listening to Deepak Chopra’s “How to Know God” on the bus to Bristol today. It’s a good few hours long. I tend to listen to it when I go to sleep, his voice is soothing.

I think if I’d listened to it a couple of years ago, I wouldn’t have got past the first chapter, it would have been ‘too religious’ for me.

The word ‘God’ used to be a real turn-off for me. The idea of handing over control of my life to an external, unreachable old bloke with a beard? No thanks. Now however, I am happy to accept that the word ‘God’ is just that, a word, which can be used to describe a myriad of different interpretations of ‘Source’, the energy from which we all stem.

I now strongly feel that we all share the same source. The person opposite you on the train. You are a part of them, they are a part of you. And not just us people, but everything around us – the bed I’m lying on. The music in my ears. The air I’m breathing. It’s all energy. And if that energy is ‘God’, what does that make us…?

I’m also now more inclined to think that there is some kind of intelligence behind it all. The more ‘miracles’ I see in my life (and in the lives of those around me) the more convinced I am that this is the case. I think it’s far more unrealistic to put down to ‘coincidence’ those events where just the right person enters your life at the right time than it is to put them down to some kind of intentional timing by some force.

And what if I’m wrong? I don’t think it matters in the slightest. We each have our own realities, and it’s up to us as to what those realities are.

Wow, the freedom!

Why do we allow ourselves to be so constrained by society and the opinions of others?! How repressive must our childhoods be to make us forget the freedom of spirit we felt as young children?! Is that the sacrifice we must make in order to be accepted as adults? If so, is it really worth it?

One of my goals for 2008 to recapture more of my childhood spirit, that un-self-conscious sense of wonder and joy, delighting in the ‘miracle’ of life.

And to remember that at the end of the day, nothing really matters. When things don’t go my way, that’s ok. Things that happen in these human lives of ours are of little consequence. If I stay true to my source, and love unconditionally, there will be no place for regret, guilt or other bad feelings.

That’s how I want to live.

Anyway, must manifest a hot water bottle now.

xxx oyasumi xxx