I had grand plans to document my arrival back in Japan both on this blog, and on a podcast. It’s not going to happen though – at least not yet.

I’ve found it a lot more difficult to settle in than I’d anticipated. One main stress factor has been money – or lack of money. Things are very tight, and with payday still at least 6 weeks away (once I have a job that is), it looks like things won’t be getting easier anytime soon. I find it difficult to relax when I have no income. We should have enough to survive on though, it’ll be OK.

The main goal of the next six months is to earn as much money as possible to pay off our debts and move house, without the relationship suffering too much. This means that my creative projects (such as a new podcast series and further development of Three Seeds Publishing) will have to be put on hold. It’s a shame, but I feel it’s a necessary sacrifice in order that we can keep these difficult times as short as possible.

Having said that, things on the job front are looking promising. I have been the beneficiary of a lot of help from two friends in particular – my ex-colleague Shari, and my good friend Tom. Without them I think I would be feeling a lot more desperate! Thank you both. I’m also grateful to my potential employers for their understanding of the situation.

At least the house is now in order. For a while there it was all cardboard boxes, difficult to find anything, difficult to relax, but I’ve got it sorted, everything in its place. I’ll take some photos soon.

I will also post about what *Twinkle* and I have been going through, perhaps at the weekend.

Right, time for lunch.

4 Responses

  1. I know that it’s probably not going to help, but I do find sometimes that it’s helpful to remember an intensely difficult time emotionally in my past and how I got through it and it seemed like nothing to me afterward. In fact, once the period of crisis passed, I rarely thought of it again. Try and place this current situation in that context. It’s hard, but it might help.

    Some day soon, you’re going to be able to look back on this time and remember how hard it was and appreciate the stability you have. That’ll be a wonderful time. The universe is doing that pesky thing where it “helps” you appreciate how good your life is by making it difficult for awhile. I think it has something to do with the whole “no light without the dark business.” (Stupid universe!)

    Good luck, and, you know I’m pulling for you!

  2. Thanks Orchid64,

    I also believe that, and I do find it a comfort. The harder things get, the more thankful I should be!

    It’s only right that the Japan chapter starts off with hardship, the narrative wouldn’t work without it 🙂

    Appreciate your support. I reckon it’ll all take shape next week.